I'm not one for resolutions, mostly to do with the fact that I'm not one for keeping resolutions, but I am ready to set some serious goals this year.
A word for 2014? I don't really have a word this year, some years I do and some years I don't, but I do get the feeling that this year will be about:
and Trusting even harder.
I know I'm still young, although 22 year old me would think otherwise. I know that there's still time to be exactly who it is I want to be, and to do exactly what it is my silly ol heart yearns for me to do. Why didn't I feel this gracious time before.
On the other hand I feel as though as if time is running out. Running out for what I'm not sure. I have a sense of urgency I've obviously not felt before. This is not a bad thing.
A now or never kind of mentality if you will. The time to strive and achieve the creative life is now.
That's my hope for this year. To live a creative life.
To unblock these weird dreams of actually making a living off of my creativity.
For now my purpose is to be vague, I'm even too nervous now to say my dreams out loud. (but in time I will)
Have you heard of a book called 'The Artist's Way'? It's a 12 week course on the spiritual path to recovering the creative life you've always known you should be living. Having this book on hand fits in well with my 'use what you have' motto.
It's a little too weird for the normals, too normals for the weirds. Too New Age-y for the Christians, too Christian for the New Agers (that's a thing right?). I'll admit to you now that I'm committing to this 12 week course with some hesitations.
I've started and not completed this book maybe twice now, but I don't think I had the need to get over my artistic blocks like I do now.
I wouldn't call myself a struggling, suffering artist, but I do know that if I want to have the career I've always dreamed of I need to start taking this title way more seriously, just the artist part, not the suffering part.
I'll leave you with this: I'm committing to 12 weeks of intensive creative healing. 12 weeks is way easier for me to deal with than all this 12 months commitments I read about. I'll be sure to post about my progress here, maybe it can be a weekly thing.
Already I've started on writing morning pages and I'm almost done reading the tasks for the week one "Recovering a sense of Safety". My insides tighten as I read and write about this, my heart starts racing at the thought of sharing all of this with you. Guess those are indicators that I'm on the right path here.
If this works for me then it will work for anybody. I'm a stubborn, impatient person with high ideals and big dreams, so if that sounds like you too then stick around.
I'll make 2014 count by giving my dreams a run for their money. Working hard at making my business work, learning even harder to get the skills I don't yet have and yes, copious amounts of trust in God. He did after all command me to not be afraid, because He is with me. So I'll be holding on to that for like ever.
Linking up with some inspirational ladies today, all of us sharing our hearts on how to make 2014 count. I'm excited.