Don't you just hate the word 'go-getter'? Argh, I almost hate as much as when employers advertise positions for 'office Rockstar', 'social media Rockstar', 'team player, admin Rockstar'... (Can you tell I've spent some time on job sites this year?)
A quick update for you from around these parts is that I've recently taken on the terrifying and crazy amazing world of self employment. Which should explain the lack of Lanlettie posts for a while.
I'm just not a team playing rockstar as it turns out.
Let me tell you friend, from what I've learned over the past couple of weeks, is that few things will bring you as face to face with your own self-doubt as working for yourself will. Am I right fellow freelancers, entrepreneurs, go getting self starters?
I want to share with you this weird process because, something in me feels like I can't be the only one out there. Just some good ol girl who wants her own business, that takes off beautifully as she travels the world. Really, can't be just me? I'm not an overachiever, and there's a lie that I've been shaking this past while that I don't need to be in order to be successful. (or a 'go-getter as established earlier)
Well, it's challenging and weird and all kinds of hard and wonderful and other adjectives too, but what I'm really here to share today is how I'm staying motivated in these murky early days. These early days that are filled with the roller-coaster of emotions that scream anything from "you suck", "what the hell are you doing", "you're going fail" to whispers of hope and encouragement "you're on the right track", "you're going to make it", "you can" (...you can).
This is what's helping me fight the good fight:
-I pray. A lot.
-Remembering why I'm doing this, and it's not just because my previous office job was dumb.
My reasons are not complicated, my motives are pure. I want to be able to work from anywhere in the world. From Spokane to Johannesburg, from 'free wifi' coffee shop to pajama party in my living room. I love sales and marketing, through the many varied jobs of my twenties, sales and marketing shine through. So, I'm going to run with that.
-Inspiring quotes. No really, different ones for different days.
"Start where you are
Use what you have
Do what you can"
- Arthur Ashe
This quote really reminds me it's about today.
-My husband. This guy is my biggest fan and so patient with me. What a man.
-Surrounding myself with the support I need, hello online loving! (not in that way)
-There is no other option. I tell myself this is a fact and then move on.
When days get weird it seems the most logical move for me to get back on the job sites and look for steady and responsible job. These are the most unproductive days. Instead I've created some goals within certain (realistic) timelines. So, if I do fall flat on my face, repeatedly, I can look at other options once my time has run out. Today, is not that day!
-Understanding what my goals are, and breaking them down into each day or week. This is something I really struggle with.
-Learning and cultivating new positive habits
I'm working on making writing 1000 words 5 times a week a habit. Some days I love it, and I end off at word 1000 with great satisfaction and general awesomeness-that-is me feeling. Other days I labor, I labor hard to type through nonsensical sentences and that inner critic that somehow found a megaphone. Oh the fun and games I willing put myself through, also I couldn't recommend such a challenge more, do it. You'll love it (and then tell me how much fun you're having)
-Mostly I try to learn something new and useful to my online business everyday.
If I can turn off 'work mode' at the end of the day with 'all forward motion counts' I deem it a good day. Some days are harder than others, as with life, but holding onto why I'm taking this risk, why I'm building what I think I'm building, inspires me to do more, learn harder and be braver the next day.
You know that cheesy line of 'do something everyday that scares you'? Yeah, basically my life right now, and I freaking love it.